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even now i can feel it slipping further away from me yet i've only just awoken

hail queen nothing, only queen that kills just for nothing

everything i despise i end up becoming

my selfishness has caused things to drag on this long. the eyes of buddha see all realites, it is only a matter of time before these thoughts become reality. knowing that and doing nothing makes me all the more selfish but to put an end to this i take that to a whole new level, one i know i will punish myself for the rest of time if i can achieve it.